Study

Tired. I don't want to think ahead. I don't want to think of applications, acceptances, money, loans. I don't want to wonder if tis a waste to spend so much on a year away.
I've never doubted that I want to go. I'd be a student forever if I could. Imagine...always having access to a college library! I love literature enough to study it for as many degrees as there are.
But I do so hate forms. And paperwork. And I'm terribly guilty that a loan may be required. I need focus. Total commitment to the thought that this is what I want, and I'm prepared to work for it.
I know too well my aversion to attending to details. But goddamit, this is my dream. Other people are paying for it. I should probably do the rest!